Today I walked with Terri at 5am and again at 7:30 with Noel. For whatever reason it is a good thing to get outside and move around. At 5 it was foggy and actually cold. Terri and I walked and talked. It was a good and we need that time to know what is happening.
Then Noel was ready to walk and went out again. The sun had come up bringing warmth and light. Edinburg has many different moods during the day.
I believe that is true of us as well. We have many different moods through our lives. I had never understood people who say they had the worst year of the their lives until this last year. I began last year with a trip to the emergency room thinking I was having a heart attack. Turned out it was just the stress of dealing with my parents and an alcoholic brother. At least the next couple of months of counseling helped me to understand I wasn't nuts. I remember going to the first meeting and thinking what if he uncovers a bag of worms and totally blows me away. He didn't. He said I had done very well dealing with it up to this point.
Then a close friend started having problems health wise and within a couple of months died from cancer. Too much time in the hospital. However it helped me to deal with my Aunt's death who passed away a few months later. Aunt Louise was as close to me as my own mother and was a dear friend too.
All this set during a tremendouse downturn in real estate that aside from the great depression has never been seen before. So we have my mental and physical health, death and financial stress. Then about 3 months ago I was hit by a car while washing the window of my car in a gas station, a month later had a stroke in my eye and now have another problem happening with my leg that was hit.
The not so funny thing everyone around us was having the same issues. Not to the same degree perhaps but people always have stress it seems.
So this morning while walking, I get the sense of someone waking out of a sleep, sitting up and looking around. It's about time for a new season! Normally I am resilient and positive but this last year stretched me beyond the usual limits. It feels like the resiliency is back.
So while life can divert and distract us for a time or a season, it shouldn't be permanent. There is a lot life all around us. Life is a dance if we will but join in. Or perhaps a walk, up tall hills, down high mountains and trails beside cool waters.
Keep walkin,
Ron
